im in again...

i can doubt how i love u so much again...
i cant lose u more..im really sorry about what happen suddenly the past...

status..

I'm being enjoying with my new life...
I can know more friends either it female or male..
single actually but not to much available because i don't think so with the past thing...sometimes can ignore but certain times i need it back..
but for now i enjoy being single..freedom..
i don't like to being like the past...

What should i do???

soe sorry everything that i have dont...maybe it hurt..but couldnt do anything....i can avoid for anything that will happen..sp lately im so sad about the thing...
maybe me cant refuse that...becoz no my choice...

love...

There is no formula for generating the authentic warmth of love. It cannot be copied. You cannot talk yourself into it or rouse it by straining at the emotions or by dedicating yourself solemnly to the service of mankind. Everyone has love, but it can only come out when he is convinced of the impossibility and the frustration of trying to love himself. This conviction will not come through condemnations, through hating oneself, through calling self love bad names in the universe. It comes only in the awareness that one has no self to love.

Love is a strange emotion. When one thinks of it, a conflicting multitude of thoughts arise. Love is pitiful and marvelous, empowering and parasitic. It is hideous; it is beautiful. It is weak and strong at the same time. Love has started wars, ended wars, caused the depression and death of millions, as well as caused uncountable others to be thrown to the heights of ecstasy. So is love truly such a pure, lovely thing? I think it is a mixture of both. Just as nothing is purely good or evil, so is love.
When I saw you, I was afraid of meeting you.
When I met you, I was afraid of kissing you.
When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you.
Now that I love you, I'm afraid of losing you.


Life is never perfect, and love is never what you want it to be. I don't know where we will end up, but I do know that we share a love. As we enter this new phase in our relationship, I feel a chance to begin again. Everyone knows how pearls are made, sand in an oysters mouth... Well our love has encountered and will continue to encounter "sand" and other trouble... But as we work the best we can, we can make our own pearls. Someday when we are old and grey, we both will stand hand in hand on a beach of pearls and watch the waves come in, and know that our love has conquered all that has attempted to shatter it, and together we will be victorious.

Sometimes you have to find yourself. And when you do you realize that you may have lost what you wanted in the first place. And you find your self missing something, like a kiss or a word and you hate yourself for not being more forgiving. By then you realize that the one you hurt will never want you. And you know that when you face the uncertain horizon you do so with love that will never fade, but will always grace the intended from afar.

yohannes 1:52

Yakinlah, engkau akan melihat langit terbuka. Engkau akan melihat malaikat-malaikat Allah turun naik kepada Anak Manusia itu."

yohannes 1:32

Aku pun tidak mengenal Kristus, tetapi Allah telah mengutus aku untuk membaptis orang dengan air. Allah telah berkata kepadaku, 'Engkau akan melihat Roh turun ke atas seseorang dan tinggal di atas-Nya. Dialah yang akan membaptis dengan Roh Kudus.' (1-33) Aku telah melihat Roh turun dari langit seperti merpati, dan Roh itu tinggal di atas-Nya.